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"I would rather be ashes than dust! I would rather my spark burn out in a brilliant blaze than be stifled by dry-rot. I would rather be a meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy, permanent planet. The proper function of man is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days in trying to prolong them. I shall use my time." ~Jack London

Monday, October 24, 2005

Here's To You

I wake up most mornings to discover an email in my inbox from somewhere around the world. It’s sort of an amazing thing really, to know that I have so many friends in different cities, states, countries. I like that idea. I like knowing that everyone is off having adventures separate from my own, and yet, we’re all together in some way. We’re all still friends. As lame as it may sound, it makes me feel grown up to have the people in my life spread out across the vastness of the world. It makes me feel so connected to things, as though the universe is both much bigger and much smaller than I ever imagined it to be. It’s so amazing to think how grown up we all are. It’s so amazing to think that this is life.

I’ve had too much caffeine today and so most of this probably won’t make sense and certainly will not be eloquent. I don’t care. It’s just one of those days when my phone has been ringing with unexpected callers and I’ve gotten to catch up with people I feel like I haven’t seen in forever. It’s just one of those days when I feel so endlessly grateful to have the amazing friends that I do. I love you guys. I love being able to talk to you for the first time in a year and have it feel like nothing has changed, like not a minute has passed since I last saw you. I love hearing about all of the things that have changed, how your lives have progressed, how you’ve matured. I love that you’re off exploring life, whether you're 5 minutes from home or half way across the world. I’m just feeling so much love right now for all of you.

Which includes my newer friends as well, the ones I’ve made beyond high school, the ones I am still getting to know. I am so blessed to know you and I look forward to years and years of getting to know you better. It’s funny to go back and trace friendships, to try and figure out where they began. I have so many, “If I hadn’t ___ then I never would have met ____.” There’s always a priceless relationship that forms from any of my major life decisions, and that means that I really shouldn’t ever have regrets. Those decisions brought me to each of you, and I wouldn’t trade them for the world.

The truth is, no matter how much I may complain about things at times, I love my life. I love my life because you are all in it, because you are my life. So here’s to you, my dear friends, and the journey into the infinite abyss that we’ve embarked upon, together.

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